Lost blog / Personal

February 2018

Let’s go back to 2 years ago. Here I was having a coffee at Kaffee 9 in Kreuzberg, guess I had been to Modulor to get envelopes and stuff for Wrist Worms orders.

A stroll in Mitte, a place I don’t visit that often.

Oh, I was in Leipzig where I had one of the most horrible experiences in my life ever – stayed in a hotel and went sleepwalking, naked without my glasses on, and ended up in a staircase in which all the doors were locked, so I couldn’t get back into the hotel corridor. Like that wasn’t enough – it was also freezing cold. I was banging on walls until my hands were bleeding, a woman finally woke up and opened the door for me. Inbetween, I lost all hope of someone finding me, so I tried to lie down on the stone floor. The really sad part is that I thought I deserved it, and was ashamed that it happened. Had this been today, I would have pressed the alarm button and the whole hotel would have probably been evacuated, instead of running around banging walls for an hour not to freeze to death, hoping someone would hear me. I never pressed the alarm button, cause I didn’t want to ruin the other guests’ good night sleep. It’s so surreal to think back at this.

Look at that elephant.

Took a long walk on my own while Johan was working fixing stuff for a restaurant.

I remember how this view took me back to Gothenburg, the area Haga, maybe you see what I mean when you see this picture. Are you enjoying those collections from the lost blog? Hope so, cause I have many more posts like this, some with many pictures and some with just a couple. S x


  • blackbird
    February 7, 2020 at 12:25 am

    Oh, Sandra, I remember when that happened to you at the hotel! A terrible, awful, upsetting thing!
    I’m glad you feel better about it now. You’re very brave.

    • Sandra Juto
      February 7, 2020 at 10:05 am

      Thank you, so kind of you to say <3
      The next time I stayed in a hotel, I blocked the door with my luggage, 😉

  • Awfulknitter
    February 7, 2020 at 4:16 pm

    Yeah, more old photos please! I love your picures, they’re a nice substitute for not being able to take long city walks myself, which I love to do but don’t get the chance very often.

    • Sandra Juto
      February 8, 2020 at 3:18 pm

      Oh hope you get the chance to take a long city walk soon. Nothing beats it for me, happiest moments in life <3

    February 8, 2020 at 12:17 am

    I’m happy you’re back. Porto is a nice place to visit, I’ve been living ther 7 years btw!

    About your disease: do whatever you feel that you need to do, sometimes pain is fuel, sometimes isn’t.

    I wish you all the best, I hope you feel better…not everyone is gonna be able to understan but who cares?

    • Sandra Juto
      February 8, 2020 at 3:19 pm

      Thank you! And you’re so right, not everyone will understand, but life’s too short to care. I have had people tell me “Everyone feels like that!”, I’m like yeah. Having bipolar disease and wanting to die isn’t exactly like wanting to die from a hangover 😉

  • Silvia de Vries
    February 8, 2020 at 4:00 pm

    Enjoying it very much!


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