It’s dark and gloomy outside today, my head feels a bit the same. Wow, this starts very inspiring. BUT I’m hopeful, usually when feeling like this, I know that something good will come out of it. Just accept and wait, instead of trying to fight it. I haven’t been very productive lately, decided to put away all the yarn for a while, to do something else – like focus on this space, go back to illustration, make a new logo for the Wrist Worms (don’t like the one I made last year), do some more staged photoshoots instead of quick snapshots, write more.
The kitchen window is like a tiny rainforest now that the trees outside are green. The kitchen is very dark, but the other rooms are very bright, so it’s OK. A bit of a safe cave to turn to for some comfort.
My biggest fear right now (drama queen at the moment); bought new paints and brushes to start fresh. The old ones are dried out since not painting for about 8 years. Trying to convince myself that it’s OK to practise, fail etc and not expect something I will be satisfied with after the first try. Need to start seeing my job as a job again and treat it like a job-job. Got a bit lost in all this – a very privileged problem, I know. I guess feeling like this about life, most people decide to have kids. As most of you know, I don’t want any.
Here is someone who’s super busy with different clients. What is he doing here? Trying to force his aloe vera to grow in a different direction. Maybe he can do this to me? No, it’s up to me, only I can do something about it. What do you do when you feel uninspired?
An army of sailors.
See you soon <3