Week 10

Last monday, I love this new routine I’m doing every day, except not on saturdays depending on if I feel like it or not. I get up, take a shower, make coffee, write morning pages, check email, read the news, sometimes check instagram before I go out for a not so long walk (approx 2 kilometers). Now I’m writing this post while boilding lentils for a lentil salad for this week’s lunches.

Imagine the day we can sit inside of a café again, look out of a window. Can’t wait.

Passed by the buddhist tempel.

One of my extra dads sent us a package with mostly Swedish stuff. The tubes of Kaviar are the best!

There were some rough days last week if I’m going to be honest. I’ve never experienced my hormons being this crazy before – I made sushi and the pieces became so ugly that I was crying like a wimp while trying to finish them. Don’t know what’s going on – maybe perimenopause combined with bad food habits, sleeping too much, too much sugar, no yoga, worries about the future and other things. One evening Johan texted me to meet him at Salami Social Club for a pizza, they are delicious but SO greasy. It was hard to finish my half although it was really tasty, not saying anything else.

An old tram passed by and we had lunch from Gemüse & Friends at Warschauer Strasse, I went for halloumi and Johan for shawarma.

The weather was crazy, unfortunately I missed out of these clouds, never seen them this massive before. Have you?

A couple of days of beating myself up, seeing hints everywhere – Machen means “to do” and I’ve been feeling SO stuck and questioning what’s the point of everything. So, friday evening Johan and I took a long walk, had a couple of beers, made a cheese and charcuterie board which we ate with Riesling bubbles. I’m not going to advertise alcohol as a miracle cure, but for me it sometimes help to put my brain in place and see things from another perspective. We had a lot of fun, braiding hair, listening to music, talking blabla.

Johan got Joy Divison’s Closer on vinyl that day and I dug up a Pet Shop Boys interview record which I bought in London 27 years ago on a school-trip.

On saturday morning Peps came over for a whole day of cuddle. The picture outdoors – she thought we were going to play fetch and after taking this picture she lied down and refused to leave. I love when dogs show what they want. She’s so clever, one summer she was hot and looked at me, then at the fan, then at me, then at the fan. Like Get the hint, Sandra!

On sunday it was Charley time. How lucky am I to have two dogs to take care of now and then? Peps is coming over this week too, 2-3 times.

Went through all my yarns to see if there was any skeins to make nude Buttcracks of, no. Ordered and there will be nude ones eventually.

Johan and I took a walk in the evening. I said I think the base of the TV-tower and the sky have the same shade, let me take a b&w picture. Right. Happy to live with someone who sees the same things; he said he was thinking about it 2 seconds before I said it.

Let’s see when this space will have a building with sky rocket rents. And a favourite row of buildings.

Passed by a shop with Swedish candy on Schreinerstrasse. This box reminds me so much of childhood but it came in a regular bar. Since when do cows lay eggs?

Ended week 10 laughing at ourselves – me being the bunny and Johan being the elegant lady. Shared a pizza from Ritrovo outside Silo, their pizzas always win (I know it’s pizze in plural in Italian, but sounds better to say pizzas, or what do you say?). It’s as great hot as cold, to eat immediately or after a night in room temperature (not with meat, obvs).

OK, so let’s see what this week brings. It’s Johan’s birthday this weekend, yay!


    March 15, 2021 at 11:07 am

    Too much sugar is bad for anxiety. I have read many books about that.

    • Sandra
      March 16, 2021 at 11:48 am

      yeah, and so addictive! i’ve been addicted to it twice in my life and it was so hard to quit! made me understand what addiction is for sure and i’m so happy i don’t have any other (except for lipbalm haha).

  • Alina
    March 15, 2021 at 5:50 pm

    I need to start a piggy bank for when we’ll be finally able to sit in cafés and have coffee again. So I can sit in ALL OF THEM! This pandemic took a huge part of my life …

    • Sandra
      March 16, 2021 at 11:48 am

      all of them at the same time!!

  • k
    March 15, 2021 at 11:18 pm

    Mammillary clouds, or bear tracks? I think? Funny, weird, a little scary.
    I’ve been fine waiting this whole time when there was no end in sight, and now that it’s in sight, I’m restless/crabby, and worried about having to go out into the noise and the bustle.

    • Sandra
      March 16, 2021 at 11:49 am

      i think i won’t be a fan of loud people and screaming kids at the cafés but have invested in noise cancelling headphones yay!

  • Awfulknitter
    March 16, 2021 at 12:12 pm

    I love the floating Alexanderturm! You made me remember that I had a tube of Kalles kaviar at the back of the fridge. Ugh, just checked – it’s two years out of date, I probably shouldn’t eat it. (I always preferred Ikea’s brand of kaviar anyway.) How have I forgotten it so long?! I’m a bit annoyed that my nearest Ikea closed down and I can’t get kavair and jars of herring – although they stopped doing my favourite rye crispbread ages ago.

    • Sandra
      March 16, 2021 at 12:16 pm

      Have you opened it? If not, maybe it’s still OK but I get food-poisoned so easily that I wouldn’t dare to try. An opened tube lasts for about 6 months.

  • Mims
    March 17, 2021 at 2:45 pm

    For what its worth, I really cleaned up my eating habits when I began getting PMS/hormone swings. I went whole foods, plant based. Not vegan (which can mean eating alot of vegan junk food) but fruits, vegs, legumes, whole grains, nuts and seeds. It really helped me…of course your mileage may vary. I still eat some cold water fish and mussels. I recently found out I have a genetically elevated lipoprotein (a)…a type of lipid particle related to cholesterol, that puts me a greatly elevated risk for cardiovascular disease…and WFPB diet is what cardiologists recommend for that…so I am already on that lifestyle path . I am older than you, and have crossed over into menopause, but in the five years just before that I worked with a really great naturopath and did homeopathy and topical progesterone cream, plus I needed some low dose thyroid. I do bio-identical hormone replacement therapy now. I think finding a really good doctor who understands hormones and women’s health is the key to successful healthy aging. It is never too soon too establish a relationship with a doctor. And walking, lots of walking! with maybe some weight lifting.


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